There's something I have to get off my chest. There's something I want to tell you, but can't find the right words. But I am going to try.
I have known you my whole life and as far as I can remember myself, we have been there for each other, we have always been best friends. And nothing in the world is ever going to change that. I know a lot has happened lately, I know that you have been through so much. And it must be so hard right now, but I want you to know that I support you as much as I can.
Your whole life is about to change soon. But I want you to be happy, even if that means that I won't be a part of your daily life anymore. Even if that means that we won't be able to do spontaneous reckless things together, even if that means I'm gonna have to say goodbye. I want you to know that I support you and your choices. And I think that you have made the right choice. You inspire me, going alone, so far away from everything that's familiar, going somewhere strange and distant, leaving home. I look up to you and think "That girl is brave". And I know you must be scared, I would, but I am sure that you're gonna do great! Because I believe in you.
You're like a sister to me, like a family. That's why this is so hard for me. I know that I'm not going to loose you, you'll always be a phone call away if I want to talk to you. But it just won't be the same. I am not going to be selfish. I'm happy about you, but so sad at the same time. I try to imagine how it will be, but my brain can't realise it yet. I can't imagine my life without you, my best friend. You can't be replaced. I know that a thing like this would have happened anyway sooner or later and that I'm probably overreacting and making a fool out of myself. But it's just so hard to let you go.
Remember, you can always count on my support, advice and understanding. I'm going to miss you so much. But right now I want to grab a bottle of martini asti and drink it with you, I know we still have time for that. That and a lot of other things. Let's just gonna enjoy the time we have and be happy.
Your Best Friend.
Always, no matter where you are.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
It's the road that's ahead of me in all its endless glory. It's gonna take me by the hand and throw me ahead, pushing me, ignoring any speed limits. I don't need to think, I just need to let the road take over me, over my heart, my brain. It's gonna lead me, it's gonna show me how to live, not only survive. I do not exist, I am alive. It's gonna teach me courage, it's gonna teach me to be strong. It's gonna tell me things I shouldn't know. It's gonna show me things I shouldn't see. And I'm gonna do things I shouldn't do. I'm gonna be bad, I'm gonna be mean. I'm gonna get what I want. I already have. Cause I'm the road. And the road is me.