Choices

I've been busy for a while, I still am. Busy with taking hold of my life, cause it was going a direction I hadn't planned, hadn't wanted. I always thought of myself as decisive, but now I see that I'm not. I can't make a simple choice. Well, but maybe the choices aren't that simple.
It's as if one part of my life has ended and from swimming in the pool I've moved to the sea. People are expecting so much from me, and I can't let them down. If I do that - I'm finished, my chance would be over. It's my philosophy of life that the choices you make define who you are and who you'll be in the future. And here I am, not being able to make a choice, not being able to say 'No'. So I remain silent.
We should choose wisely who we trust, who we tell our plans. And for that matter, I'm gonna shut my mouth a little.
And I understand that I can't run away from such decisions, but I'm still doing it, avoiding my problems, putting them aside, as if it was a solution.
It's not.

I'm not dead, I'm busy

I am so sorry for not posting for so long, but I have been so busy with my studies and exams and everything, but I've finally got myself together for this article. A lot has happened lately. Really A LOT. I've gone through lots of ups and downs, but it finally seems that everything in life is starting to find it's place. Life is like a roller coaster one minute you're up there and the next one you're going down. I feel peaceful, I know it's only temporary, but at least for a moment I can sit down and relax. It actually feels weird to have free time, I'm used to the rush, to the never ending obligations. I can finally lay down and read a good book and it feels great! I'm enjoying the freedom while I still can, but I know that September will come fast and it's just gonna be more difficult next semester. There will be new people, new things, new problems. But I don't care, I'm strong, I will survive this. Right now I'm feeling enthusiastic, bring on the adventures! Bring it on! Let's see what this summer can offer me.